ahhhh. it's mondae again tml. sucks man. there's like a pratical. n lots of stuffs? hate mondaes. it blues me! anw. had this motivational course by karno. our ex-student. yeah. one word. GREATNESS! Do to others what others yearn to do! tons of stuff man. after that. did sth first b4 heading to find bestie, xiaomei and zhutou. hahas! love the time la especially with all the animals! hahahha! anw. saw someone taking a 6 wood golf club! LOL! swinging it around 11pm on the patch of grass beside the sch field! LOL! LMAO! laughed like siao sia. LOL! then jz, mf and tracy met up n headed to my house. relaxed of course. bestie n zhutou went home first. then the rest stayed on! lots of fun man! realli jus so love the weekends! hate weekdays. sucks big time.

Your smile makes a difference
You reflect my dreams
Nothing ever matters
Whenever you're with me
Your surprises never fail me
You're my need
Your innocence reveals
The love I have in me.

alex-

my 90th post. titled. my dad still doesn't understands me.

ever since i was young u were the one that smack me the most. i dunno why. even if i done nth wrong. my siblings did wrong. u hit me instead of them. my maths wasn't good in pri sch. u hit n hit n hit somemore. wth is wrong with u. i merely skipped tuition to complete my hmwk. there are like tons of it u understand? even if i try to clear them. they seem to be coming from the endless road. just try to understand me okie? just hear me out or ask why b4 u even start yr lecture. dun make me leave home.

alex-

i'm feeling so so so good now! finally i'm able to let the things tat is stuck in my brain out! thanks to you! for so long so long. even the sun would died i wanted to tell u how i feel. finally todae i express myself out! woot! loving todae! loving everyday! ta da ta da daa. i'm loving it! pardon for my high-ness! eating mac! LOL! (: LOVES!

Like so finally. taken 3 papers alrdy. paper 1 for eng n chi and ss. i think i screwed my eng paper one. ah crap. no time to even finish it. chi rock big time with a electronic calculator! wrote like damn long. years since i did tat. well. studied ytd at mac. was damn tired. seriously. took pics lol! all xiuli's idea lor! lol! funny la. oh man. more papers to come nxt week man.

rather scary man. so many ppl on silent mode suddenly. like all got the anti-social machine (mp3/phones) with them all the time. lol. ear plugs are always stuffed into the ears.

besties! 091006! #09 #10

me and xiuli!

for the heart of music

reminds you of the arcade picking up stuff toys. LOL

stop poking me!

A good bit of me keeps to the sky

On the back of the cloud unaware of how high

If I stay where I lay I may drift away soon

From a pull of the sun I am full of the moon

Baby you're the one who grounds me

When the sounds of this world surround me

Your love took a look and find me

Lost and on my own

alex-

Decided to blog now. can't get myself to slp. yeah. it's the weekends again. was bored this whole week. seriously can't feel myself in me. was like dead tired yesterdae. slpt at 1.30am last last night. anw. C&c 3 was damn fun man. all the graphics and stuffs. lol. was damn lazy since last week man. can't help it. sec 5 play catching? yeah tat's us. seriously damn fun! u get to run around. bond with yr friends. improve on 2.4 blah blah blah. LOL. suay-ness bestow them. all got caught by pang except for me. even had to climb out of school. like moron la. 3 more days to the start of mid-year. didn't realli even started yet.

finding life more n more meaningless. wat's the point of getting such good things in life. u gonna end up dead one day. getting all the misery on to you. the inner hollow in me now. is taking over me. didn't expect myself to change in like a blink of an eye. seriously i agree to wat joanne told me. "very scared one day no more friends" it's likely human nature to be scared. however. just think. if u ever angered yr friends or stuffs like tat. of cos they will distance themself from you. tat's the point where u get to close in to them. learn from mistakes n stop doing the same thing time n time again. if u expect things from them. dun give them the wet blanket. get it? give them the wet blanket. they shut themselves off to the world of their own alrdy. so u tell me. wat's the point of life?

feeling more n more in my own world whenever i'm with the gang. it's like non of a common topic all can talk about. seriously. everytime we talk n talk is all about problem n problems n more problems. wat's the point. come'on ppl live happily. get over with the past, do with the present, plan for the future.

However. getting outta the box to everything all around me. communicated more with classmates. at least they dun wet blanket me. oh yeah. forgetting tat i bought a anti-social headset. loving it man. damn it. my room is in a seriously big mess. gonna clean it up either later on or tml man. WHERE GOT TIME TO STUDY?!

alex-

Went to chinese swimming club! was super fun man! love the shower room! for once we took it longer than the girls man. jingzhou, mingfeng, ben and me was like. wahhh. heavenly. lol. i wanna get a rain shower attached in my TOILET! wahh. nice man.

well. bfore that. was with raishun and twins went to eat then arcade a lil. saw bettina, jiaxing and samantha! stupid sam! anyhow lor! hahahas! then tianshi-la a.k.a xiao ai No.2 and Zhen zhong xiao ai sharon came to find us! and i turn out to be xiao ai No.6! hahas! was rather relaxing man. keep my thoughts occupied. so can't think of anything negative! after around 5 jiu left to find the rest of the gang. found grace, liangzi, tracy and eunice! and since ben wasn't there yet. we took grace to the sam pet & aquarium! hahas! well. still scared uh bestie! bu yao pa! (: went to ntuc soon after. spend on some snacks which we didn't eat. lol! then off to csc! woot! badminton from 6 to 8.40pm! non stop hit! showered in the super nice shower room! then off to parkway! shared dinner with xiaojie! (: non spicy mee rebus! then all homed after that!

Bao chi xiao rong-

alex- (:

It's friday the 13th. yeah. seriously bad friday man. felt so vulnerable. during chinese. so many words i just can't seem to get them right. totally moodless after that. sorry to anyone that i dao-ed or simply no reactions from me. can't help it man. totally shagged. had oral soon after. and i talked like so. less than 5 mins man. seriously. during oral was like. wanted to say "then, ah, lor" all sorts of stupid things. which luckily i held myself back before i even blurt the word out. then after that. went to eat with clements. which after that leaving us to the 3rd floor study area. played soccer ball and crapped first. then badminton with gang! did silly stuffs! ncc was like. lol! don't care. azam said so! xD had night class at 6. lol! after night class explore the school! DAMN fun sia. seriously! let's see who was there. Syazwan, yazeed, jeff, ivan, jingzhou, mingfeng, clements, zhuanliang, pauline and me! sia la. laughed like siao sia. got to know alot of things man. seriously. then went to eat at food court with alif and joey joining us. went home only around 10pm man.

Nadfa

was sucky. didn't do well for it. feel so weak. this is the result if u slack in ncc man. sleep around. play games. watch shows. lol. nvm. last year already. no more for me next year!

anw. jj mei got to see the rk house thingy. lol. she was laughing away. wonder why. but indian asscent is hip! so IN man. xD gonna get C&C 3 from wenjie nxt week. man. 9gb man. seriously! I NEED A EXTERNAL HARDDRIVE!

Thursday made me realised alot of things man. had talks with wenjie. xiuli. found out alot of things in common. and many things i found out. hate going to school man. how i wish one day. i would just perish and never go to school. woot. i don't mind man. seriously. now i go school also like nth. go school get scoldings. like stupid. I SWEAR i will stop talking like mdm wong. bloody hell. gonna stop all that nonsenses.

Still feeling anti-social. no matter how i try to talk. it's either ppl don't even bother. and when i dun talk. they say i dun talk. wth is wrong with this man. clements was so right man. "don't work. u will get drifted away" experienced tat alrdy. not gonna attempt it again. my teenage life is like ending alrdy. to ppl around me. it's not that i dun wanna msg u. it's tat i'm not those kinda ppl who start a topic. more like a person who adapt to wat's around me. not changing things around me. if you have a problem with me. give it straight in my face. cos i dun give a damn. hate me? then fuck off.

Choice by life, Fated by destiny

alex-

it's monday again. was rather tired. damn shacked. well. today first period our POA ppl got scolded. cause only like 13 people pass the disposal test. was rather shocking man. i was the last one that kinda just amazingly. i don't know how. manage to pass. however. was still rather disappointed by it. 10 half over 20. for english which was after POA. was rather quite happy for my compre mock paper. 28/50 while liangbin got 26/50. first time sit together. pass together. LOL! then after that. another paper. chinese! i passed! woot! 21 half over 40! oh well. like after so long. hard work pays off man. sodoku was damn hard for today man! xiuli and me was like. figuring out the whole thing for social studies. only ended up with 7 numbers. LOL. went home after Social studies. my valentines didn't take picture with me! hahas! sad man. oh yeah. anyway. yesterday went to tracy house to so called study, eating and play mahjong. won twice! so close man. some pictures!

Alex-

Happy b'dae lihui!

oh well. i let my blog rotted for one week without my own notice. sorry peeps. GINA bu yao DAO wo! even xiuli ask me to update. let's see what i've been up to this week.

Thursday
oh man. my memory is getting real bad. seriously can't remember what i did. i think i most probably just went home straight after school and watch my prison break.

Friday

friday was speech day. speech day was a boring day. boring day cause we couldn't see marching. we couldn't see the marching caused we were told to be in the hall. in the hall i slept 3/4 of the whole ceremony. the whole ceremony ended at 5+ going 6. at 6. met tracy,liangzi and grace. took bus 5! alighted and went to NTUC to buy some ingredients for cooking. 3 of them went to look for raishun while i went home to prepare spaghetti and some vege. they came over first. followed by eunice, the twins! dinner was nice! and and. finally the ripples is eaten by the GANG! everyone was rather high! but then everyone went home around 10+!

Saturday

went out with twins and serena. went to bugis. before take 197 to east coast. ARCADED! sexiness! long time since i last played! ate at lagoon in the night with joanne, tracy, twins and serena! dinner was super! watched stars at the usual spot.

Sunday

Skipped tuition. tuition sucks like big time. you heard me. big time. so pon tuition and went to marine parade library to study. went to tracy house study too. only grace, twins and tracy was with us. went home around 8+ that night.

Monday

went back to school. was super boring. too tired. bought coffee that day.

Tuesday

had chinese remidal. boring.

Wenesday

had 2.4! my god. couldn't run man. so long since i last did so. had some badminton! woot! needa jump more i swear! wanna grow taller! my god. also had pizza at pizza hut with jiamin lihui yantong jz and me! and once again happy b'dae lihui!

Alex