Freedom as some of my friends have seen in me. was an attribute that doesn't existed in my dictionary. it might be seem that i could go anywhere, anytime. but in fact it's a choice between facing the wrath or just enjoy the happiness. in my parent's eyes i couldn't see where they place me. just because i have a lower intelligence doesn't mean that i'm useless. so stop condemning me. sometimes things just suck so much when you have siblings that are much smart than you. they seem to can do everything. i could still remember the days you whack me so hard that my skin turn blue black just because i couldn't get my time tables right. i forced myself to memoried but to no avail. i tried but you didn't see. and whenever you tested me. i get whacked because of slight mistakes. causing me to hate maths for almost a decade. the first sight of my test results was always looking at the negative side of my results. and never once looked at my acheivements. you should know i cycle around the neighbourhood just to distress myself during the night. oh maybe you don't even take notice. when ever i wanna stay overnight at my friend's house. all you could say it's no. namely. you are "worried". i'm not your puppy anymore. i'm a grown up 17 years old teenager.

Some of the gang in negative-

all these while. if it wasn't for my friends i would have broken down.

To Gang, HPY, CCNS, Kc and those that have contributed in making me, myself again.

THANK YOU!

Hey dad look at me

Think back and talk to me

Did I grow up according to plan?

Do you think i'm wasting my time

Doing things I wanna do?'

Cuz it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it

I just want to make you proud

I'm never gonna be good enough for you

I can't pretend that I'm all right

and you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it all

Nothing last for ever

I'm sorry I can't be perfect

Now it's just too late and we can't go back

I'm sorry I can't be perfect

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